And Another One

Here's another old school poem of mine...this one was actually pretty good and quite relevant to how I feel about someone now.

"Wishing You Were Here"

awoke at night
wishing you were here
thinking of
the protective feel of your body against mine
I feel safe
The smooth touch of your hands
caress my body ever so gently
The warmth of your breathe
heats my body to the core
The alluring look in your eyes
draw me into your soul
The comfort of your voice
lets me know everything is okay
The poetic feel of your words
lets me know you'll forever be mine.

written February 23, 2005

Extended Metaphor

This is a poem I wrote back in my Sophomore year of high school that I recently found. Oh the memories!

My mind, body, heart, and spirit are like a poem
The first stanza lets you into my mind
It lays out my thoughts
describing how I think about the things happening around me

The second is my eyes
In these lines you explore my past
You see my life in the present
You view my future

The third is my mouth
It speaks the truth
yet at the same time tells you what you want to hear

The fourth is my heart
It opens up to you my feelings
Explains to you what I've wanted you to understand for so long

The last stanza is my spirit
It lets you read about the trails and tribulations of my life
It ends the poem in remembrance of my achievement
rather than my failures.

Reading this now...I think I was ok. I believed I have improved some since then, but I'm no where near where I want to be.

Poems, Thoughts, Emotions....they're all the same

Lonely Me

Lonely me, missing you, wanting you to hold me, console me
Lonely me, waiting for you, to find me, define me
Lonely me, thinking of you, invisible you and
the things you would do, would say, would convey
Lonely me, wishing for you to come to me and tell me that you love me and need me

*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
me and him
a black and mild
some smoke and alcohol

me and him
long walks and conversations
sparks and temptations

*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
I don't trust myself when I'm with you
It's just the things I allow myself to do
Things that should not occur between us two
but I want to
and that's what makes it so hard
cause I've had a taste of the things you can do
and I want you

*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
my lips miss your kiss
my body miss your touch
my ears miss your words
my heart miss you so much

*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
I Pray Before I See You

because I know you could talk me out my panties,
and you believe that sex is just like candy,
so deliciously sweet
and your favorite treat

because you know exactly what to say
to make me stay
in a position of trust
mixed with a large amount of lust

because your hands feel so good
as they roam over my body
but then I begin to hear everyone say:
Stop
Wait
Save it all for marriage
and I want to

So, I pray before I see you
because I don't want you to know exactly what to say to talk me out of my panties so I won't find myself in a position of trust mixed with lust that was sparked by your touch.

The Woman Warrior

This book was quite interesting. I loved the beginning which included stories that the author had heard during her childhood of strong women warriors like Fa Mu Lan (Mulan from Disney). While the first half is mainly about strong Chinese women, the second part is mainly about Kingston's strong Chinese mother.

This is an ok book. Don't think I will keep it but it didn't hurt to read it. I would definitely recommend it to anyone looking to read about a culture other than their own.

David Copperfield

There is not much I can say about this book except that it is 400 pages too long. I admit I did enjoy reading it at first, but if I were not required to read it, I would have stopped reading around 400-500 pages. The book is 800 pages long and chronicles everything from David's birth to the birth of his children. What makes the book remarkable and a classic is the great detail and the way Dickens introduces numerous characters throughout the novel the same as we meet numerous people throughout our lifetime.

I would definitely recommend this book to anyone that has a tremendous amount of time on their hands. I give it a B+.

A Change....Someone New

This weekend was a very nice weekend. I spent a lovely weekend with a special person from my younger years. Although we are not official, it felt as if we were and I liked that feeling. I cannot put into words what exactly made my time with him so special other than I enjoyed myself tremendously and hated to see him leave.

I can honestly say that I am very infatuated with this person and have found myself doing things very unlike myself. For this weekend I relinquished my typical fears and restraints and allowed myself to share an experience with someone that I would have not had if I would have held fast to my fears and restraints. There is something about him that just makes me happy, makes me want to just relax and enjoy myself. I am giddy when I think of him, and when I talk to him. I simply cannot wait to see him.

I went back to an old blog of mine mentioning how I would like to find me a special someone for the present moment..."practice" so to speak and reminisced on how I had only asked for something like this to happen only 3-4 months ago.