Novels

So, I am taking two novel classes this semester. One is a British Fiction class and the other is A Survey of Ethnic Literature (whatever that means). This basically translates into me reading 2 novels a week at 400 pages a week. Exciting. So I decided to list the novels here and write a short post on each novel after I read it. So the novels I am reading this semester are:
- Persuasion - Jane Austen
- The Mill on the Floss - George Eliot
- Tess of the D'Urbervilles - Thomas Hardy
- The French Lieutenant's Woman - John Fowles
- David Copperfield - Charles Dickens
- Beloved - Toni Morrison (Read this one in H.S., but it's one of those books you have to read at least twice to fully comprehend it)
- The Woman Warrior - Maxine Hong Kingston
- Angela's Ashes - Frank McCourt
- Interpreter of Maladies - Jhumpa Lahiri
- Lucy - Jamaica Kincaid
- Ten Little Indians - Sherman Alexie
- The Brief Wondrous Life of Oscar Who - ...
- Plus two others that I don't have yet or I know I won't be writing a post on.

I've just finished Persuasion and overall I would give it a B-. It was a decent love story, but it took me 130 pages out of 236 till I finally got into it. For the better half of the novel, Anne, the main character, is trying to fight her feelings for a man who she was once engaged to, but was "persuaded" not to marry him because he was beneath her in status and rank. Around 130 pages, she starts to see that he can no longer pretend to hate her, and is starting to show his true feelings for her. If I wasn't forced to read the novel, I probably would have stopped reading it around page 50. Jane Austen is good with words and gives plenty of elaborate details to make you feel as if you are in the 18th century. However, she is a bit wordy. Overall I liked it, and will actually keep the book and not sell it back to the book store.

Random Facts

In the spirit of keeping up with my New Year Promises, I'm going to post a blog about 25 random facts about me since I don't have anything significant to talk about.

1. I am an English major at the University of North Texas.

2. I am adopted and have 6 brothers and sisters from a variety of parents.

3. I have 2 dogs.

4. I just bought a '97 Toyota Corolla

5. I love music and almost have 2000 songs on my computer.

6. I fantasize about my life way more than I live it.

7. I am in a co-ed honor fraternity.

8. I still live in the dorms.

9. My friends are predominantly white, but we have few things in common... i.e. music, books, theories.

10. I paint my toes year-round even though I only show them in the summer.

11. I desperately want a bunny.

12. I still watch cartoons.

13. I wish I could skip dating and jump straight in to marriage.

14. I secretly want to get my heart broken.

15. I am contemplating selling my eggs for money.

16. I'm running out of random facts about myself.

17. I don't know how to ride a bike and recently just learned how to drive a car.

18. Purple is rapidly becoming my favorite color.

19. I cry a lot. Not alone, but I am extremely emotional.

20. I am slowly working on seeing the greatest movies of all time.

21. I finally saw Casablanca, The Godfather, and It's a Wonderful Life.

22. I have never gone farther than kissing with a guy.

23. I sometimes wish I had more excitement in my life, and then sometimes I'm thankful that I don't

24. I wish I were a better writer.

25. I hope to someday change someone's life.

My Promises for 2009

1. I promise to follow through with every plan I make, including taking Yoga, buying a car, and finding a job.

2. I promise to present myself better. I make this promise to myself every year, and every year I actually improve my image little by little. In '08 I actually began to wear earrings and carry purses.

3. I promise to stop doing at least half of my bad habits, like standing on the back of my knees, biting my nails, and my all time favorite, procrastinating (this one however will most definitely be broken once school starts).

4. I promise to write more and read more outside of school work. Since starting college, my creativity has been lacking but I am going to make sure that the the creative juices begin to flow again by making a promise to write at least one blog a week and one poem a week.

5. I promise to write one blog a week and one poem a week :)

I can't wait to see how many of these I actually kept at the end of the year. If I'm lucky all of them if not at least one.

Reflection of 2008

2008 was a heartbreaking year for me. It started off fairly nice, but became filled with despair towards the middle, but thankfully it ended better than it began. My year began to get a little rough in the end of May when my Godmother had a stroke and I was the only one that was able to take care of her. Me and my mom struggled all summer to find someone that would be able to take care of her during the day and stay with her at night. I had to stay with her for half the summer and go to summer school at the same time. Unfortunately, we could never find anyone that was qualified enough or available enough to be able to stay with her very long and the whole process became very stressful. Then, in October, she had to be hospitalized for unknown reasons and unfortunately she passed away two weeks later while I was away at school. Although I could not be at her side the day she died, I had a chance to talk to her everyday during her last week.

Her passing away really took a toll on me and every time I thought about her I just cried. I am actually crying now while writing this. Her death was just so unexpected since she was making wonderful progress when I left for school. It hurt me so much that I had to leave to go to school when we still hadn't found anyone we could trust to be with her. But she fortunately was never alone after I left and I thank God for that. But it is going to take me a very long time to not cry when I think about her. When I first came home from school for the winter break, my sister and I were driving to the DMV and we drove past her street. I immediately broke down crying when she took the exit from the freeway that lead to my Godmother street. I hated the fact that she was longer going to be on Hurley St. and that I no longer had a reason to go down there.

My Godmother was a significant part of my life and I thank God that my mother chose her and her husband as my Godparents. The best thing about her passing is that I know that she is now in heaven with my Godfather who went to his heavenly home only four years before. I missed them both tremendously, and I will never forget the everlasting impact the two of them had on me and the unconditional love they showed me.

Dear Taurus Beauty,

Hi, there are somethings that we need to talk about. I heard some where that writing a letter to yourself could help to relieve some stress and anxiety. So, Marcia, I decided to take this time out to talk to you. To start, you are awesome and wonderful FYI. In all your greatness, there are some things we need to work on. I've learned that you don't like change. You need to learn that change is good. Everything must change, the weather, age, life, everything. So, don't be afraid of the changes that are happening around you. Things must change, and you have to learn how to accept them. But, know that you do not have to accept any change you do not agree with.

Then there is the issue of your confidence. You definitely need to work on that. You are working towards that by taking a step to control your acne. And, then you have already decided to take yoga in the spring to start on the road to getting fit. However, we still need to work on how you view yourself now, before all the improvements. Improving your outer image is good, but it means little if the way you feel about your self on the inside affects how others see you.
So, let's start boosting that self-esteem.

Finally, relax! Don't stress about the small things going on around. Everything will work out. You can try and help somethings along, but there is only so much you can do. And I know you are used to being just you and yourself, and are starting to get bored and tired of it, but continue to enjoy the time between you and yourself. I know you are tired of being alone, but I have heard people say that the time you have alone should be spent to adjust yourself and the things in your life.

In conclusion, love you boo! Try to adjust to the changes of the world, and live your life the way you want. Stop being afraid of life and get out there and enjoy it!!!

The one that loves you best,

TB

Let's get to know Taurus Beauty ...

I saw this and thought I would share some details about myself to whoever is reading!!

1. Have you ever made out with someone you weren't dating?
Unfortunately and fortunately...no

2. Is there a difference between the word 'best friend' and 'friend'?
Yea, a Bf is someone that knows every detail about you except for the ones no one knows, including the ones you try not to think about, and a friend is simply someone you hang out with and talk to when your Bf isn't there to talk to.

3. Have any of your guy friends ever admitted to liking you?
Of course...it happens.

4. Do you miss anyone?
Yes, the people closet to me that died in the past 6 years...:(

5. Can you recall the last time you sincerely liked someone?
Yes, and I wasted my chance with them...:( (I don't like these questions)

6. Who's the last person of the opposite sex that gave you a hug?
Um....I don't remember. Yea, sad I know.

7. Who is your celebrity crush?
Chris Breezy...sexy young'un

8. Can you touch your toes?
Yep!!

9. Do you know anybody who was abused?
Yes, I do.

11. Is silence really golden?
It depends on what you have on your mind mixed with what is going on in your life. Sometimes you don't want to be left alone with your thoughts.

13. Are you afraid to grow up?
No, because everyone has to rather you want to or not. All I have to do is stay young mentally.

15. Can you count past 100?
Of course, I may have grown up in the hood, but they did teach me how to count!

16. What's up with the numbering of this survey.
No clue, and I didn't make this up, so don't look at me like I can't count.

18. If you had to marry someone on your top friends list on Myspace, who would it be?
Unfortunately the main people on my top friends are family (that ain't happening even if we do live in Texas), female friends (that ain't legal, and me don't likey the ladies), and other friends that are just friends. But, if I had to pick one, it would be LDS.

19. Do you care what people think of you?
Only when I think they may be mad at me, other than that, your opinion is your opinion.

20. Would you call yourself smart?
I surely wouldn't call myself dumb, would I?

21. Do you like to read?
Love it! Unfortunately I can't do it as much as I used to due to all the school required reading.

22. Do you own a pair of Nikes?
Of course. Everyone has at least one pair.

23. Have you ever touched an elephant?
Nope, sure haven't

24. Plans for tomorrow?
Yea, always got stuff to do whether I want to do it or not.

25. Is anything wrong?
Is anything right?

26. Would you kiss anyone on your Myspace top friends list?
No.

27. Do you want to go to college?
I'm in college!!!!

28. What are you listening too?
The sound of a thunderstorm going on outside my window.

29. Do you have a good relationship with your parent(s)?
Yep! All three of them!

30. What did you do for your birthday?
Last birthday I had a dinner with my whole family that 2 hours to get started (angry feelings resurfacing)

31. What were you doing at midnight last night?
Trying to finish a paper that is one of 2 grades.

32. Name something you CANNOT wait for?
Marriage! And not for the wholesome reasons most people have.

33. What's your favorite season?
Spring...best time of the year!! My birthday mixed with great weather, what more can I ask for?

35. Last thing you ate/drank?
Ice Cream of course!

Was that as good for you as it was for me? He he, I always wanted to say that in a none sexual situation....

Hmm...do you really like me?

Ok, so lately I have been in the mood to find me a boyfriend, no I don't like that term. Maybe a mate, no. A man? Naw. How bout something cliche like that special one for right now. I'm not looking for my husband, but better yet some practice. I am 20 years old, and have never had an even semi-serious relationship. I want to change that. Unfortunately, the only guy that I could possibly change that with has too many issues including himself. So, I'm stuck with just me at the moment.

Poor me!!